I am changing this journal to Friends Only....I will be putting a banner on this post once I get everything switched over ^_^

wow. I haven't updated in like. a month. O.o;;;;;;; I'm special!

Andy and I are still doing fine, I'm probably happier than ever. :3 He makes me smile.

I need to schedule Osiris' declaw/fixing. Hopefully I get that done soon, he's waaaaaaayyyy too hyper.

Still looking for a second job....cross your fingers!!

Other than all that...I really don't have a lot of updates...cuz I'm cool like that

Okay. Most depressing thing ever.

The Veronica's are playing in Minneapolis and Milwaukee. Alex wants to go to one of them. The depressing part? They're opening for Hanson.

FUCKING HANSON.

So there's no way Alex is going and being surrounded by stupid Hanson fangirls. *angry*

I haven't updated about Madison...I really should....but I'm still particularly annoyed about stuff and I don't feel like bitching. I had a great time being w/ my fam and andy though.

Osiris is still a shit....work still sucks, mostly because they want me coming in at 8 am after I work a closing shift. That doesn't make a happy alex.

Nothing else is really new...I need to get ready for stuff. *flops*

...I'm amazingly amused at how sunburnt Andy is. But I feel bad that he can't sleep well......*looks at his lobster red back* BAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

1] Put your iTunes, Windows Media Player, etc. on shuffle.
2] For each question, press the next button to get your answer.
3] YOU MUST WRITE THAT SONG NAME DOWN NO MATTER HOW SILLY IT SOUNDS.


IF SOMEONE SAYS "IS THIS OKAY?" YOU SAY?
Touchdown Turnaround (Don't Give up on me) // Hellogoodbye

HOW WOULD YOU DESCRIBE YOURSELF?
How to Save a Life // The Fray

WHAT DO YOU FOR IN A GUY/GIRL?
Why Not // Hilary Duff

HOW DO YOU FEEL TODAY?
Soulmate // Natasha Beddingfield

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE'S PURPOSE?
Hey There Delilah // The Plain White T's

WHAT IS YOUR MOTTO?
Catch me When I Fall // Ashlee Simpson

WHAT DO YOUR FRIENDS THINK OF YOU?
Meet Virginia // Train

WHAT DO YOUR PARENTS THINK OF YOU?
Recorded Butterflies // Olivia Lufkin

WHAT DO YOU THINK ABOUT OFTEN?
When All is Said and Done // Trapt

WHAT IS 2 + 2?
One Week // Barenaked Ladies

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF YOUR BEST FRIEND(S)?
Nothing New // Ashlee Simpson

WHAT DO YOU THINK OF THE PERSON YOU LIKE?
Still Frame // Trapt

WHAT IS YOUR LIFE STORY?
The Sun // Maroon 5

WHAT DO YOU WANT TO BE WHEN YOU GROW UP?
Daylight Robbery // Imogen Heap

Wheeee alex makes updates :3 lol

Life is getting better with leaps and bounds, I'm probably a happier person now than I have been in a really really really long time...like years. I have friends who I know will be there for me no matter what, I boyfriend who wants to be around even if it means he loses sleep (^^;;; hehe), I had an interview for a job where I'd make about 27,500 a year...I'm crossing my fingers on that one, I really really really hope I get it. And I finally am feeling confident in myself and not conforming my life around someone else to try and always make sure they're happy and want to be with me.

I need to get my brakes on my car fixed...but my mom is going to try and help me with that when I get down to Madison on Tuesday, we're gonna drop it off at her mechanics before going to the campsite.

Osiris is still being a little shit, but we still all love him. Isis starts the fights with him sometimes, it's really cute. :3

Money is still really really tight...but it's okay. I'm confident that whatever job I end up getting will help me get back on track.

Ummmm...I think that's it for now. I'm hoping that once I start making more money I'll have more interesting things to say because I'll be able to go visit more people (like joannaaaaaa) and stuff....hopefully.

...

*teehee*

I've realized that I like...never update on here.....XD I'm so bad at blogging.

Well. Update on life I guess?

Things are going really well...Andy and I started dating a few days ago. He makes me really really happy and is showing me that I don't need to conform my life around a boyfriend. Finally.

I'm planning on applying at a few new jobs...I don't make enough money to really support myself. *sigh* I love my job, but liking a job doesn't mean anything when you can barely afford your bills.

Osiris and Isis are being crazy as usual. They're still not totally getting along but I guess as time goes on it'll get better because he has no fear. NONE. It's cute.

Other than all that..life is pretty much the same. But things are finally going the right way...and I'm going to enjoy every minute of it.

I like this movie/song a lot :3

Your dating personality profile: Liberal - Politics matters to you, and you aren't afraid to share your left-leaning views. You would never be caught voting for a conservative candidate. Adventurous - Just sitting around the house is not something that appeals to you. You love to be out trying new things and really experiencing life. Big-Hearted - You are a kind and caring person. Your warmth is inviting, and your heart is a wellspring of love.

Your Top Ten Traits 1. Liberal 2. Adventurous 3. Big-Hearted 4. Wealthy/Ambitious 5. Sensual 6. Practical 7. Outgoing 8. Traditional 9. Stylish 10. Funny

Your date match profile: Adventurous - You are looking for someone who is willing to try new things and experience life to its fullest. You need a companion who encourages you to take risks and do exciting things. Practical - You are drawn to people who are sensible and smart. Flashy, materialistic people turn you off. You appreciate the simpler side of living. Big-Hearted - You want someone compassionate, someone gentle and kind. A loving, nurturing person will fill that hole in your life.

Your Top Ten Match Traits 1. Adventurous 2. Practical 3. Big-Hearted 4. Conservative 5. Traditional 6. Outgoing 7. Wealthy/Ambitious 8. Funny 9. Sensual 10. Intellectual

Take the Dating Profile Quiz at Would I Date You

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OOOOOOOOOOOOMG

Pretty sure I'm so screwed out of sleep tonight.

...Pretty sure I don't care.

*flees*

These two kittens are amaziiiing. The brownish one is Linzi's new kittun, and the black one is mine!!!

They don't die. ever. I've decided. And I can't seem to break out of the trend that whenever things seem out of control I choose the worst ways ever to control at least one thing.

I dropped 6-7 pounds. I can almost FEEL the weight slowly dropping off because when I eat I barely eat anything because my stomach has somehow shrunk from all the stress.

Other body functions are fucked up to...and I know I need to stop stressing out otherwise it's just going to keep getting more and more out of control.

I feel bad that my feelings are so conflicted, and I wish I could just get over things and make up my mind on all the new stuff that's going on.

Jamie says I'm slowly changing into an edgier, more angry person. I really wish I knew how to stop.

Sometimes I wonder if I'm anorexic...because whenever I get stressed or feel like I'm losing all control, I stop feeling hunger. Or when I do feel hunger, I also feel nauseous...which then makes me not want to eat.

I've dropped about 5 pounds in three days. Without trying. I just am not eating because of all the bullshit going on. I hate being so sensitive to problems, I hate being hormonal and depressed and a bundle of nerves all the time.

I keep telling myself I deserve better and I need to let go...and I can around some people. Like Andy...he does make me feel better about myself, like how I used to be. But at the same time my mind won't let go. It won't let me stay happy once I'm alone again. I've been sitting around feeling like I was going to cry since probably around...11 today? ish?

I wish I could let go.

Going to appleton tonight, I'm really really excited about it.

I know that people are telling me it's too soon and blah blah blah...but honestly. I'm sick of sitting around hoping things will get better. I'm going to MAKE them get better. I'm grabbing life by the horns and just doing what I feel like doing. I'm not going to wait around till a knight in shining armor comes and rescues me from the highest room in the tallest tower to whisk me off my feet and carry me off.

I'm being my own prince charming, and finding my own way.